its one of those nights that my thoughts are so condensed I guess. its hard to sort out my thoughts and feelings tonight. its frustrating i feel that I cant handle all aspects of my life all together . there is always something that is ignored and handled incorrectly. I make one problem my main focu...

it's almost half past three in the mo ing and I am still awake. This has been my sleep patte since a few weeks ago.

I watched a video about free will and whether we make decision on our own or things are dictated to us by different causes such as our upbringing or our experiences or environment. that is a fascinating topic with a profound impact which can alter ou

I was thinking that as long as I can remember I have always written about heavy and depressing stuff. I want to write more about happy and light hearted things. today I was made aware of the fact that the quarantine time is extended for two more weeks here. What the hell. at least they could open a ...

so finally I have a lot of time to sit and write something. normally I write at 2 in the mo ing stressing over how to wake up on time the following day. no it's 22:45 and I think I can spare an hour to write in peace. let's see what I can come up w

I feel so fatigued. nothing makes me excited these days. I feel like after approximately seven months of being completely on my own, I now desire something completely different. I don't know what I want but everything feel repetitive and uninspiring.

I haven't written anything in a long time. I don't miss it but I am not suppose to stop doing a task which I want to tu into a habit for two days in a row. so here we are today was my day off. I did a few chores that I had been procrasinating. my r

These days, I feel better about my work. I feel more productive .I don't want to jinx it, but I feel like I'm on a roll, just workwise. after work I tu into the coach potatoe that I am. today I just lied on bed and watched videos after work. In my

sometime talking is the hardest thing in the world for me . the relentless need to come up with different anecdotes to stay co ected to people. I don't have that many interesting things to say. my brain doesn't continuously spit out words and senten

It's been a while since the last time I wrote here. it's not straightforward to carve out the time. When the lockdown started I had so much hope for these little writting. I thought I was on my way to write my first novel. but now look at me! every t

- It seems like things have come to a head. - Yeah! Everything is so foggy. I'm sinking more and more everyday. - But you can fix it, right? - I'm not sure. + نوشته شده در یکشنبه بیست و یکم آبان ۱۳۹۶ساعت 20:31&nbsp توسط نویسنده |

Spring has slways been paradoxical to me. Everything is striving for growth while I am extremely lethargic and demotivated. Perhaps because the need for change isn't tangible enough. I'm constantly assaulted by the perfection of spring . I just want to sit and look at the pretty birds. + نوشته شده د...

I set all these formidable goals and forgot that one day , n the long run, I may lose the motivation! I already miss 1395! + نوشته شده در چهارشنبه شانزدهم فروردین ۱۳۹۶ساعت 1:23&nbsp توسط نویسنده |

One of my favorite things in this entire world will always be family gatherings at my grandparents' . All those familiar and new faces are so precious to my heart. It's weird how time gains authenticity in that magical place. + نوشته شده در چهارشنبه بیست و سوم فروردین ۱۳۹۶ساعت 1:40&nbsp توسط نویسنده...

The rolercoster. Just when you reach that glorious peak of euphoria, starts the descend. Nonetheless, I enjoy it. I absorb every feeling to restructure my soul. + نوشته شده در چهارشنبه بیستم اردیبهشت ۱۳۹۶ساعت 1:9&nbsp توسط نویسنده |

It is confusing to try to move on from something that feels so right. It feels as u atural as trying to peel off your own skin. Every inch of you screams that this is dreadfully wrong. But you can't escape the inevitable. And I am trying to stay positive about it. But there's no denying it. It's tou...

Broken beyond repair. I can't figure this shit out. I can't stop crying. and I'm not even thinking about the future and how we won't have a chance to last. All I perceive is this moment, and how I'm suffocating. and all I can ask for is your happiness, without me. + نوشته شده در چهارشنبه دوازدهم مهر...

I need to write more frequently. I was fine last week. It felt like I had everything under control. I was living my life. It was probably the most unproductive week ever. But I was feeling alright. Now it seems like I'm losing my grip. I'm trying to be realistic and understand that there's a high po...

storm's coming. I can feel it in my soul. The wind is strengthening and the floor is starting to shake. My world is about to become upside down. It will pass. But I wonder how many nights am I supposed to glance at the moon without enlightenment. + نوشته شده در شنبه بیست و دوم مهر ۱۳۹۶ساعت 0:49&nbsp...

I need to write for hours. There's so much shit that I need to process. I am slowly dissolving. I'm having a serious case of eating and sleeping disorder. I'm under a great deal of pressure and I'm emotionally damaged. Not that I don't love it. I enjoy being in the middle of a to ado. My life is whi...