its one of those nights that my thoughts are so condensed I guess. its hard to sort out my thoughts and feelings tonight. its frustrating i feel that I cant handle all aspects of my life all together . there is always something that is ignored and handled incorrectly. I make one problem my main focus and consequently every other thing is my life starts regressing/deteriorating.

today was nice. finished my work early. went for a bike ride. a few bugs flew in my eyes. was terrified of touching my eyes owing to Coroa. was in pain and had to retu home very quickly. I've been indoors too much I think my body can't handle the harshness of outside world anymore.

I digress.

I'm goa go to bed . Have a busy day ahead of me.

it's almost half past three in the moing and I am still awake. This has been my sleep patte since a few weeks ago.

I watched a video about free will and whether we make decision on our own or things are dictated to us by different causes such as our upbringing or our experiences or environment. that is a fascinating topic with a profound impact which can alter ouادامه مطلب

I was thinking that as long as I can remember I have always written about heavy and depressing stuff. I want to write more about happy and light hearted things.

today I was made aware of the fact that the quarantine time is extended for two more weeks here. What the hell. at least they could open a few restaurants or clothing stores. I have nothing to wear these days. it is very hot and I have only brought warm clothes with me. I have two wrinkled T shirts that look like they were washed up on the shore. and don't get me started on take aways and restaurants. I just miss them dearly. Corona also took my restaurant buddy from me. I mean she is fine but her program eneded ahead of time due to corona and she went back home

This is madness and I need a bagel burger

so finally I have a lot of time to sit and write something. normally I write at 2 in the moing stressing over how to wake up on time the following day. no it's 22:45 and I think I can spare an hour to write in peace. let's see what I can come up wادامه مطلب

I feel so fatigued. nothing makes me excited these days. I feel like after approximately seven months of being completely on my own, I now desire something completely different. I don't know what I want but everything feel repetitive and uninspiring.ادامه مطلب

I haven't written anything in a long time. I don't miss it but I am not suppose to stop doing a task which I want to tu into a habit for two days in a row. so here we are today was my day off. I did a few chores that I had been procrasinating. my rادامه مطلب

These days, I feel better about my work. I feel more productive .I don't want to jinx it, but I feel like I'm on a roll, just workwise. after work I tu into the coach potatoe that I am. today I just lied on bed and watched videos after work. In my ادامه مطلب

sometime talking is the hardest thing in the world for me . the relentless need to come up with different anecdotes to stay coected to people. I don't have that many interesting things to say. my brain doesn't continuously spit out words and sentenادامه مطلب

It's been a while since the last time I wrote here. it's not straightforward to carve out the time. When the lockdown started I had so much hope for these little writting. I thought I was on my way to write my first novel. but now look at me! every tادامه مطلب

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